Monday, May 19, 2008

I`m still alive under my rock...

still trying to figure out the direction I want to take...I not sure if I should continue with this blog or start a whole new one. Something doesn`t fit...I`ve grown as an artist or to put it more aptly I`ve rediscovered my inner artist that I abandoned in my late teen years for a life of partying...I`m happy to report that I am painting again, and having stumbled upon artists like Suzi Blu, Tascha, Paulette Install and Wyanne have been really jazzed about mixed media...I`ve found a form of art that really speaks to me and flows naturally for me. I`ve started an Art journal that just brings me infinate joy and with all this creativity I`m just so much more happier as a person. To think that my road back to art all started back in 2004 with a trip across the street for some Fashion magazines for a project upon which a copy of CK magazine caught my eye. From there a full blown obsession with scrapbooking/papercrafts emerged which opened me up to a whole new community on the web, which opened me up to blogs and from there I feel like I`ve stumbled down the rabbit hole and came out into a magical world where a whole world of like minded souls are creating beautiful things and supporting one another through it. Not having many friends or family members that ``get`` me has meant for a degree of lonliness throughout my life and yet It has enabled me to feel very comfortable in my skin. To some degree I have always gotten along better with men than with women, not sure still as to why that is...I just never seem to fit in with any of the other girls. LOL Through these online communities however, I have found some great woman connections both virtual and IRL and made some friendships....but most of all I have found some very inspiring women that prove to me that there are people going through some very similar things as I am and no I am not a weird Loner!
As much as I have wanted to Blog I have been majoring procrastinating on it...using it`s not cool enough, I don`t know how to make this or do that, the learning curve, etc as my main excuses...in reading The Artists Path by Julie Cameron I have discovered that this really is just Fear. Which leads me to what pray tell am I afraid of? the answer , not living up to my high expectations of what I think it should look like, not being sure of what my voice is or what I want to convey, and yes something as simple as do I even like the name?
All this adds up to me making a serious muddle of things and making it all bigger than it needs to be.
I simply want a place to share my Art be it scrapbooking or mixed media, my thoughts and my path in life. Sounds simple right.?! and yet I am struggling with this.

11 comments:

Don said...

first off the layouts are supreme.

i don't think no one begins a blog knowing exactly where it's going. i think we all eventually arrive @ a certain point...

Wyanne said...

Thanks so much for your beautiful comments on my blog. You made my day. I can certainly understand what you are feeling right now. I've been there before too. I think that the best thing to do is make art that makes you happy and feeds your soul. Sometimes I spend way too much time worrying about something and not taking any action...and if I just start creating something...everything seems to fall into place. It's like a weight lifted off your shoulders. Don't worry about the blog. Post what makes you happy and let it evolve. I look forward to seeing some of your creations. Love, Wyanne

Debra W said...

This is my first visit to your site, and I think it is lovely!

As far as your blog goes, don't think so much about it. Just write as if you are chatting with some friends and everything will fall into place.

Hugs,
Debbie

Victorian Lady said...

Hey :) Thanks for visiting me! You can get those paint things (really water toys) at dollar tree for only a buck! I used them at a Star Wars party for a little boy before that. Love what you've made! I say stick with this blog and turn it into what you want. :)

Mere

Melanie said...

Hey good for you to get back into blogging! Right there with you sister!

Shonna said...

Thanks for visiting my blog! I am going through the same exact thing you are! I am here for support if you need it!

mystele said...

hi! i'm so glad you commented, and that the beeswax video was helpful. thanks also for the sweet comments about the "getting to know me" video. i pray God's richest blessings on your direction. looking forward to reading more about you...keep posting!

Gia said...

Wow, I could of almost wrote that word for word. (Except all the children I only have 2), but the rest, yes, 100%. I'm glad I checked out your blog. We are in the same space. We are both even Pisces. Go figure.

Sherry Goodloe said...

Instead of starting a new blog, just reinvent this one. That way you will have more time to think and do your art! xoxo

PS and keep writing - it's good for the soul.

DeeDee said...

I would encourage you to just continue the blog. I find it is the same with art. Only recently have I begun to realise that art really is a process with no end and no perfection in sight. Every piece I create is a link on a journey to nowhere specific and hopefully unknown.

mystele said...

thank you so much for the note you left on my blog...i can't tell you how much it means. thank you, thank you, thank you! would you send me your email address so that we can stay in touch? you can find mine if you click on my name here in the comments. take care!